Hi out there!
So, University has started as well as preschool for Petit Joel. We are still in the first week of adjusting, both of us indeed. It is a major change. Especially when they told me at the Graduate Orientation that I have to take a class that is only taught in the evening. No problem really; only if you have a child and no husband or family around. Duh! I desperately search for a babysitter in one day and with the help from a friend in class, I found someone to take care of Petit Joel. Needless to say, she did an awesome job. It is almost like having a grandma at home. So sweet and caring. Defiantly babysitter-jackpot here. She will be back next Wednesday! And I was so worried. “Will he be okay? Will he cry? Will he miss me?” It was the first time ever to have someone else in our house to take care of Petit Joel which was weird in a way. And he cried in the beginning screaming for me while I walked down the road. It did hurt, I won’t sugarcoat anything here. I heard him screaming,”I want my mommy, please!” which made me almost turn around. Motherhood is a bitch! I did not turn around. [I don’t want him to live in my basement at age 40 and play playstation. Eventually, he has to go to preschool and do his own thing!] As much as I love to have him at home, it feels so nice to have some free time. Running around Campus is the best, you guys. I highly recommend it. If you are passionate about something and it includes studying, do it. Don’t wait.
Otherwise, he is doing really well at Preschool. He is still the tiniest in the group but holding up to the bigger guys like a pro. Making puzzles, painting and drawing, listening to stories and finally eating lunch there. I am so proud of him. It was all in all quite a big transition for him, too. Petit Joel was used to me, my cooking, my family and hanging around us all day long. Now he has to adjust, listen, obey sometimes and learn to share. I had a little meltdown this morning when he did not want to leave my leg and wanted me to stay with him. Out of a sudden, I had this feeling that something was in my eyes and the preschool teacher told me to just hand him over and leave. “Just leave,” she said. “We got this”. And she was right. No problems at all. He stopped crying, adjusted and played with the other kids. And he ate two plates of noodles and chicken for lunch. Awesomeness. Tomorrow he will stay for nap time and I will pick him up after my class finishes. So approximately 3 – 4 pm. I try to get some more readings done and keep him at the daycare.
The weekend is around the corner so tons of time at the playground and together so I try to get as much work done during the week as possible. I love this Master Program. It is challenging but so worth it if you love languages. I don’t want to talk about what it is all about here but if you want to know more or how to apply to this program, send me and email or write a comment below.
Today, I had been reminded of one life lesson again. Life is hard. Life can be tough, messy, raw and sometimes it just suck; but it is beautiful. Whenever I negatively think, it cannot get worse, it will get worse. Something else will come up or an emergency light will pop up on the dashboard of the car. Why? Just because. This is life.Deal with it. Figure it out. Fix it. Whatever you need to do. As long as you are healthy it is all good. Who cares about a little dashboard “refill some-stuff immediately-light” as long as you did not have an accident and you are okay? Just find solutions instead of whining about how bad your life and situation is. There are always solutions out there. Just find them. This is in a way le husband talks because he usually reminds me of those things whenever I am struggling. He is awesome, I know. Today was tough, today was painful so I thank him for being him, making all this possible for us and loving me unconditionally as much as I love him. Signing off now. Tomorrow: Preschool for Petit Joel and class for me at 8.30am. 😉 The early bird catches the worm, right?
