Hey there!
I don’t know if I should put up a little tent in front of the opened fridge to stay there or simply put my head in the freezer for a while. It is almost mid-September and I feel like being in the tropics. This heat is wearing me down. Petit Joel and I spend a lot of time outside exploring or I am studying and reading while he plays in the waterpark. Again, it is September. You hear commercials on the radio to consider buying an outdoor pool because NOW is the time. I want this heat to stop. I know, I will regret this sentence as soon as winter hits Canada. My first real winter in Canada; however, I do prefer the cold over the heat for sure. There are always tons of layers I can wear to protect myself from the cold [unless I want to rough it out and walk around with just a cardigan in Toronto when it is minus 25 degrees Celsius] Or I can just wear this jacket. I learned that it has to be real fur on the hood because it makes all the difference and the coat needs to go down to the knees never just only to the hips. As far as the heat goes, what can I do? Walking around naked would still not make me feel more comfortable. Maybe some other people in the park but it would be still hot as hell. [This is how hell must feel – always exaggerating!]
I know, I am complaining; maybe because everything else went so well this far. Petit Joel is doing an awesome job in preschool and my courses at University go from amazing to fantastic. Just this heat, you guys. Wow! Usually, as soon as September [the ber-months!]rolls around I am filled with this warm, cozy feeling. Using a blanket at night again, tea, soups, nice comfy nights on the couch with a good book. Everything just feels so new; a new season and whatnot. Seeing things with fresh eyes in a way. I cannot wait to see leaves in every color and this crisp air that is just cold enough to wear a little cardigan in the morning. All those clothes that had been tucked away for so many months. That summer was definitely one of the best of my life. So many changes and adjustments, so much happened and still does. All the new people I already met and this new chapter of University is just great.
Every single year I look forward to autumn. There was this time when le husband and I spent a couple of weeks of October in Canada and observed the changing of the leaves that turned into this bright yellow, bright red and just perfect colors. We walked through forests and I felt like being in a magical fairy land, just far enough away from the real world and in such awe. Remember this crunchy sound leaves make under your feet when you walk through the forest while the sunlight streams through the colorful leaves? With fall also comes this sweet melancholy. Almost like nothing can stay forever – the leaves turn, then fall, then it is winter. All the colorful beauty is gone. But then snow is right around the corner, right?
I am looking forward to fall-walks. Collecting leaves and sipping hot chocolate on a park bench. I also just want to be on a bus and not smell everybody’s naked armpits and be totally soaked in sweat after dropping off Petit Joel at preschool. Driving around in the car with the heater on while listening to music or staying in bed curled up next to le husband after waking up to those chilly morning before I have to go to school sounds sweet. Fall is definitely my most favorite season ever. Even growing up I loved it so much more than hot, humid summers. Halloween, anybody? Last year, Petit Joel and I went trick-or-treating for the first time. He wore a devil costume and thought the entire time he is a butterfly because of the wings. Halloween in this neighborhood will be awesome. Today, we drove around a bit [in the car with the AC on full blast] and got lost. There were yard sales/flea markets everywhere and kids selling cookies. I can just imagine how awesome trick-or-treating will be. It will be magical. As magical as the first fall frost in the morning.
Nothing is better than seeing everything through the eyes of a child so this fall will be special. Petit Joel is old enough now to get the whole concept of Halloween and I will find him the best costume ever. Starting traditions with this little guy is so sweat. Hay rides, pumpkin and apple picking are on the agenda already. He drove me nuts today, but I just tucked him in, turned of his flashlight and kissed him goodnight which makes it all worth it. [Yes, finally he is quiet and I can enjoy my night in peace!]
Fall is just around the corner and I could not be happier. So I will soak it all up, every single last bit of summer and will patiently wait for fall. Who knows what next year will bring, right? Who knows where we will be. Crunch, crunch, crunch under my feet while I listen to the wind that will blow through the leaves. Two tiny hands will be waving and collecting leaves, sticks and stones. I am smiling at this thought and this is heaven to me. Just our little place of happiness in the huge universe. Just a little tiny space that is carved out in this sweet life we are able to enjoy. We will walk down the path of golden leaves.
As I am typing this, it started to rain. Hard. Thunder and lightning. I close the windows a bit because it is getting chillier.
