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.Survival of the Fittest.

Look, this place needs to be administrated, and I’m the guy to do it. I know you’ve been doing your best, but you’ve been held back. You haven’t been given what you need to be successful. And I’m not talking about money. I’m not talking…

.Lunch. *

*with the Person Who Dumped You.

You get an email from your ex-whatever-it-was-you-two-were-exactly, asking to meet for lunch. The tone of the mail is friendly, casual, if a bit stiff. You agree in a friendly, casual, if a bit stiff email of your own, and a date is set. But what kind of lunch will it be? Hold your breath and SPIN! THAT! WHEEL!

The No-Hard-Feelings-Lunch

This is probably the best-case scenario. You can be friends again and put all the ugliness behind you. “You and me, we are okay, right?” You will agree that whatever it was that you had was nice, for what it was, but the timing was bad, you wanted different things, you are two different people, after all; it was “Just One of Those Things,” as Tony Bennett sang. You will offer each other weak declarations that there are no bad guys here (because there aren’t, not really) and half-hearted promises that you are not reviled by each other’s friends, that there haven’t been long, heated conversations about how much you suck. Most important, though, is the unspoken understanding that both of you are people – weak- wounded, fragile, forgivable people doing the very best you can under the impossible circumstances that is day-to-day existence.

In the great grand scheme of things, this is nothing, this wound- it’s a nick of a razor, a scrape of the knee – and if you say it enough times and with enough intensity and smile wider each time you say it, you can even convince yourselves. After all, what were you hoping for, really? What was this ever going to be, realistically? Isn’t this the best thing that could have possibly happened, for it to have ended now before somebody really got hurt? This is much better. This makes sense. Everything’s fine you can assure each other and yourselves. Everything will always be fine.

The Loaded-Weapon Lunch

Are you prepared for this? Do you have a list, with bullets, ready to go? The breakup was abrupt. Maybe you didn’t say everything you wanted to say to each other; maybe now, with time, you have started to realize all the ways in which you were wronged. I hope you are crafting the righteous indignation in your head, shaping it, sculpturing it. What’s the sharpest turn of phrase, the cruellest, fastest way to draw blood? When the sparring begins, hang back, float like a butterfly, let your opponent use up all the good material, and then strike. Remember, the one who laughs last laughs longest, so make sure you laugh last and when you do you laugh heartily but with a detached air none-of-this-really-matters-I-haven’t-been-lying-awake-at-night-staring-at-the-ceiling-regurgitating-all-this-pain coolness. This lunch will decide once and for all who is the winner and who is the loser of this breakup. This is the moment you have been trained for, the reckoning where at long last justice will be had. The crowd roars. The judge pounds the gavel. O, Glorious Retribution, how sweet thy taste, how bitter thy sting. This will not be pleasant, this lunch, and you will both feel terrible afterwards – it will not at all provide the closure either of you had hoped for – but if there is a silver lining here (and you are not sure there is one), it is the assurance that what you had, whatever it was, had weight. It made an impact. You can put to rest the fear that you were a blip in this other person’s life, a footnote. What you did was important. You hurt somebody, and somebody hurt you.

The Reconciliation Lunch

The Tail-Between-the-Legs Apology Lunch. The Tearful I-Miss.You-I-Made-a-Horrible-Mistake-Can-We-Please-Get-Back-Together-Lunch. It is probably isn’t this, but you should maybe have a plan just in case. Because if it is this, if your former lover has indeed decided that the wasteland that was your relationship is more attractive than the wasteland that is being alone, you have a couple of options and you should consider them both ahead of time. Option A is yes, yes, yes. You can attack that yes with desperate vigour, charge blindly, romantically, hysterically into yes. Take a match to your pride, turn back the clock and pretend this breakup never occurred. You were fools, both of you – you were different people then, you were children. You can make it work this time, because now you will know what it is you could have lost. You are really going to try this time, you swear it, this time you will do everything not in shades of beige and grey but in bold, brilliant, beautiful COLOR.

But then again, maybe you have done a lot of thinking since your split. Maybe you have seen the foolishness of throwing yourself so recklessly headlong into the fray that is this other person. Maybe this was just the splash of cold water that you needed. I mean, let’s be realistic, after all. This is the question and you should have a plan: Do you welcome back love with open arms, or do you, under the auspices of rational thinking, break this person’s heart, like this person broke yours? You should have a plan, but don’t get your hopes up. The lunch probably isn’t going to be this. There are a lot of things this lunch can be, but it almost certainly isn’t this.

The For-Old-Times’-Sake Lunch

If you meet for lunch near one of your apartments, your meal might be a prelude to one more roll in the hay. You know, for old times’ sake. You know, for the sake of the old times. All those old times that would be really disappointing if you didn’t fool around again, you owe it to them. This isn’t a reconciliation, and don’t fool yourself into thinking this is closure. It’s something in the middle. Is it even something? Perhaps, in the loosest sense of the word “something.” It’s not quite something but slightly more than nothing, this.

It’s like a movie adaption of your favourite novel, a theme park ride version of your favourite movie. It’s a shadow of a ghost. It’s gluten-free pasta. But at least it’s pasta.

The Here’s-Your-Stuff-Back Lunch

What more is there to say? The world, it turns out, has continued to exist. The waters have receded. The fires turned to ash. You knew this day would come, but you didn’t want to believe it. The scars have healed, the universe has cooled, the porcupine that is your cautious heart has uncurled itself, put away its quills, and continued on in whatever random direction it was headed. And a sweater has been sitting in someone else’s closet, a barely there reminder of nothing much really.

You had every intention of being depressed forever, but as it turns out, there’s work to be done, meals to eat, movies to see, and errands to run. You meant to be in ruins permanently, your misery a monument, a gash across the cold hard earth, but honestly, who has the time for that? Instead, you survived – apparently; you both did – and things are shockingly okay. But a sweater has been sitting in someone else’s closet. A book perhaps, or a knitted winter cap. The memory of whatever spark you had is rusted, corroded, hardly maintained, and scarcely revisited. This was no great affair, this thing. This was no tragic heartbreak. This was just another thing that happened in a long series of things that happened. Here’s your stuff back. Have a nice life.

.Red and Green Flags.*

*My red and green flags in relationships and in life. Those who get it, get it. Those who don’t are probably added to the red flag list. You’ve probably had a friend who started dating someone who really made you scratch your head. The person…

.We Regret To Inform You That You Did Not Get the Job.

Dear Applicant, Thank you for your embarrassingly eager interest in our job opening and for getting to know us over the course of twelve rounds of interviews. We regret to inform you that we have selected another, far more suitable candidate for the role—a starchy…

.On Bookshelves.

If you are a book nerd like me, it’s impossible to spend more than 20 minutes online without coming across the following quote from filmmaker John Waters — “If you go home with somebody and they don’t have books, don’t fuck ’em!” 

Whether or not he actually said the quote doesn’t matter, it sounds genuine enough that it’s taken on a life of its own. Etsy and similar sites are filled with tote bags, shirts, hats, and even fucking decorative pillows bearing the quote. It appeals to a certain type of book snob, of which I am one, but not that type of snob.


I don’t particularly care whether or not you read books as long as you subscribe to my wonderful website, www.sometimesraw.com, but I do care about whether you show those books the proper respect. That’s why I lose my mind whenever I see color-coded bookshelves. Any book nerd knows these insta posts #shelfie or #bookstagram and ways on how to make your bookshelf prettier.

Even the dumbest book you can imagine — which for me is “Hillbilly Elegy” — deserves to be recognized as more than just another prop to make your Zoom background really pop. Or to take the place of actual art in a misguided attempt to simultaneously create an aesthetic and give the impression that you’re well-read. The fact that there are Etsy stores selling books by the foot (2 feet = 60cm) makes my point that this practice is disrespectful to the very purpose of a book.

This is how a bookshelf should look. There’s a little something there for everybody: fiction, non-fiction, periodicals, shit I wrote, shit my friends wrote, my grandma’s super old still functioning typewriter, a candle, a cookbook, some comics and more.

One of my favorite things to do when I’m at someone’s place for the first time is to peruse their bookshelves. I like to see if we’ve read the same things, if they’ve read things I’ve been thinking about reading, and, if they have some books I can borrow. So when I approach their shelf my thoughts are along the lines of, “Wonder if they’ve ever read any Howard Zinn?” and never, “I haven’t read a purple book in a while, wonder if they have any good ones?” 

I’m not trying to come off as a hater, at least not entirely. But I do firmly believe that when your bookshelf is designed to be looked at in purely the most superficial way I’m not wrong in assuming you don’t give a shit about what’s inside of those books. If only there was some sort of idiom I could call on to illustrate my point… 

Beyond that, I like to think of a bookshelf as a living organism that is always altering its appearance. Organizing it by color ends up making it static. For example, if you take out a blue book, you need to find another blue book to take its place, or if you buy a new book, there better be room in the indigo section, or it won’t be able to find a spot on the shelf. 

My mom will probably laugh upon hearing me say this, but I’m not against the concept of organization. All of my graphic novels are on one shelf. Most of my dense-as-hell history books are in their own bookcase. And my Russian novels are spread throughout all of my bookcases because those bastards are so big they work as bookends. Thanks, Tolstoy! 

Maybe I’m just being an asshole. I have been working on curbing those urges lately, so I should probably stop being such a snob about books… but I do believe my heart is in the right place. If it wasn’t for the hundreds of books I’ve read over the years I’d be a pretty dull person to hang out with. My love of writing (which is sometimes done in a form called “books”) has shaped everything about who I am, so when I see the writing being treated as an afterthought it pisses me off. “The Master and Margarita” is proudly displayed on my shelf because it’s a brilliant allegory about Soviet Russia with some of the most beautiful prose I’ve ever encountered, not because of the cover’s earth tones. 

Before I bring this post to a close, there is one book-storage method that is even more infuriating to me than color-coding. It’s whatever is going on behind Jenny Mustard (the Youtube infcluencer) here in her minimalistic living room. This is certified psychopath shit. 

Have the books’ spines been removed? Were they painted? I want to fully understand what’s going on here… but I’m not going to wait to start hating on it. This is terrible. The worst. 

I’m sorry. I spoke too soon. This is 10,000 times worse than color-coding.

Please sound off down below and let me know how you organize your books (or if you don’t organize them at all). Hell, if you show me an amazing color-coded bookshelf there’s a chance that I might come around on the subject. It’s an incredibly slim chance, but never say never…

.Every Person in Every Meeting.

SEAN: Happy Monday, everyone. This is me, your boss, pretending that the beginning of your fifty-hour work week is a good thing. It isn’t. I will now ask about everyone’s weekend and say, “Hope no one did anything I wouldn’t do.” This won’t make sense,…

.My New Book is Out – Get Yours Today.

Ladies and Gentlemen, can I please have your attention for this public service announcement: My new book InFused has been published. It is such an amazing feeling for a book nerd like me to have my own book published and displayed in a bookstore’s bookshelf. I…

.Frequently Asked Questions about Leaf Blowers.

What is the main use of leaf blowers?
Leaf blowers allow us to powerfully blow leaves into big piles. This is totally awesome. It ensures that humanity has unobstructed views of the naked ground at any time of the year.

Is viewing the naked ground really that good?
Definitely. As Emily Brontë wrote, “Every leaf speaks horrors to me, fluttering from the autumn tree as it says, ‘Just wait until I fall and block your view of the ground. Then you won’t like me very much, will you?’”

Are there any health benefits to leaf blowers?
Absolutely. Each fall, thousands of people accidentally step on dry leaves, which causes a terrifying and unexpected “crunch” sound. Many barefoot people accidentally step on wet leaves, and this feels super slimy and gross. These leaf-steppers often become startled and topple over, leading to sprains, concussions, or death. Leaves are dangerous, and we must blow them away so they can no longer hurt us.

Are there any statistics on leaf deaths?
Over 7,000 people per month lose their lives to leaves. Before leaf blowers, this number stood at 135,000.

Couldn’t we get rid of leaves by burning them?
No. Burning leaves is illegal and environmentally unsound. When burned, leaves emit a noxious smoke that coats our world in a miasma of pure, unadulterated fall.

What do leaf blowers sound like?
Gas-powered leaf blowers emit a gentle whir similar to a white noise machine that lulls a baby asleep, except it is sharper, more piercing and mechanical, and louder than four riding lawnmowers stacked on top of each other.

From how far away can you hear a leaf blower?
Roughly from across the Grand Canyon through a concrete wall.

What are the economic benefits of leaf blowers?
Leaf blowers directly contribute to the employment of more than 500,000 deaf people.

Where are leaf blowers most commonly used?
In leaf-dense areas directly outside your bedroom window.

When are leaf blowers most commonly used?
They are operated on mornings when you just had a rough night’s sleep. They are also used when you are trying to meditate, nap, read, talk on the phone, record a podcast, focus on anything, or hear the sound of your own thoughts.

What if I hear a leaf blower and need to escape the noise?
Not to worry. The soothing hum of a leaf blower can be easily blocked by closing all windows, inserting a pair of foam earplugs, putting on a pair of over-the-ear noise-cancelling headphones, cranking up Slayer’s 1986 opus Reign in Blood, and huddling in a closet under a lead blanket.

Who invented the leaf blower?
Roberto Kioritz, PhD, founder of the Kioritz Corporation of America, a company built on two timeless values:

1. Fallen leaves are evil, and we must blow them into huge piles and imprison them in dark trash bags.
2. The ground is beautiful when it is naked.

Where can I learn more about Roberto Kioritz and his exciting philosophy?
Excellent question. You can read Kioritz’s memoir Blown Away: My Quest to Rid the World of Fallen Leaves and Make a Hell of a Lot of Whirring Noises.

Kioritz further elaborated on his ideas in his follow-up book, I Always Want to See the Ground Naked: Why Human Happiness Requires Getting These Damn Leaves Out of the Way So I Can Look at Buck-Naked Lawns, Sidewalks, and Parking Lots All Year Round.

Both books were best sellers and are highly recommended for leaf-blower aficionados.

Could we rake leaves instead of blowing them?
We have tried. Lord knows we have tried.

What was Roberto Kioritz’s relationship to rakes?
Dr. Kioritz’s father, Roberto Kioritz Sr., once tried to rake his yard leaves into a huge pile. But his rake, like all rakes, was weak. The rake missed a leaf. When he inadvertently stepped on the leaf, it startled him with a loud “crunch,” and he toppled over, dying instantly. Roberto Jr. vowed to one day build a device to battle Mother Nature. He envisaged a machine so loud that it would “forever drown out Papa’s final death scream.”

So we have to blow on leaves forever? Is there no other way to defeat them?
Leaves cannot be defeated or destroyed. They can only be blown into piles, imprisoned in dark bags, and buried beneath the ground for all eternity.

.New York City Trip – Following the Footsteps of Author Helene Hanff.

It felt good to be back in New York City for a visit. Even though it was mostly workrelated there was still enough time to explore and catch up with a plethora of bookstores, museums, and shows. Of course, many bookstores were on my list…


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