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Versteckspiel – Artwork Mischa Schenkel

Hello and Happy Saturday!

Since the Reiki seminar and many hours spent with Martina and Uwe with tons of conversations it finally clicked in a bunch of departments in my brain. Certain things make sense – more sense than ever before. It has been a bit over one year now that I attended Reiki seminars or have seen my Reiki Master on a weekly basis. I also practice meditation. On top of that, with my upcoming birthday next week I figured that it is time to stop worrying about certain things in life. Worrying what others might think for example, dumb rules prescribed by even more clueless people and just this certain knowledge who and who I don’t want to have in my closest circle are some essentials I have been dealing with. My motto is live and let live; however, having been on this planet for quite some time now I am pretty much over a lot of things. 

I worried for a long time what other people might think of me, my life and their opinions. It is not important at all what others think and I realized that whenever I listened to it, my life was full of negativity. So I just stopped worrying about it. Simple as that because it is just a waste of time.

If you followed my blog for a while now, you know that I am not into fashion at all. Germany’s/America’s next Top Model? Who the hell cares. The fashion they are wearing walking up and down the catwalk… who the hell cares. I am discovering my body and what looks good on me – what I feel comfortable wearing. Not what anybody tells me that is suppose to look good. I don’t want to fit in just because. Some people try to fit in all their life and don’t understand that it is not important at all because those people you think you need to belong to or impress are just so boring and empty. Empty shells! I don’t want to be like anybody. I want to do my own thing – the way it suits me fine. 

I also stopped worrying about my ex(es). We broke up for a reason. Why holding on to any feelings, emotions and whatnot. It is over. I have to move on no matter what he thinks of me. The same goes for certain relationships with friends. Some people are just bad for me and I don’t want to be around them anymore. Sometimes it is just better to go separate ways – deleting virtual Facebook friendship only means you don’t want to see anything this person posts anymore. Keep in mind, this is just virtual. 

We all make/made mistakes. This is life. However, these mistakes do not define me. They are just pieces in my life that shaped me into who I am right here and now. This is all and it is okay. All these “mistakes” won’t hold me back – they don’t ruin my life. They were necessary and I am in a way even grateful for them.

Social Media. Social Media is not real life. If anybody “likes”, “retweets” what I write or “unfriends” me on Facebook, I don’t care. It is all good, I am fine. 

I had, hands-down, the best Reiki session today. It was so eye-opening and made me realize that my body is perfect the way it is. I love myself; it is my body and that is all that matters. Yesterday night at Samba I saw women who did not have the “perfect 90-60-90” body; however, they danced and had this self-confidence that blew my mind. It was perfection. I felt love. If you don’t love your body, you KNOW how to change things in your life to make it perfect for you. I mean, we all have the opportunities, options and knowledge available to make a change. Whenever it comes to status symbols: Who the hell cares if I carry a real Vuitton or Chanel purse? Only fake friends, right? It doesn’t make me a better person. It does not define me. As far as makeup goes: WHO even knows and sees if I am wearing Chanel or Maybelline makeup? 

Sometimes, things are out of my control. I cannot change it. These are the things I don’t worry about and waste my energy on anymore. Maybe this is food for thought. Maybe not. You decide. 

[And yes, Jean: I want Versteckspiel – the Original by Mischa Schenkel as a birthday gift! :)]

Hello and Happy Wednesday!

Le husband is French and I am German and we love to keep our traditions alive. In Germany or France, dinner is usually a light meal. Just some bread, cheese, sausages and a salad or olives and that is it. The whole family comes together, we all sit at the table, eat, laugh, live and talk about our day. In France you would enjoy wine with it and in Germany mostly beer. Then again, wine is fine with me, hah! When le husband and I had our little apartment in Manhattan there was a ritual we usually celebrated every Friday – French Revolution Night. Sounds funny, but we were looking forward to this all week. Le husband was in charge to buy the wine and I bought some french cheese (Le Rustique at a whopping $9.99 but who cares, right?), fresh olives and baguette. Done! So when we came home from work we talked about our day and our week while sipping on a glass of wine first to wind down. Sometimes we took our dinner upstairs to the rooftop of our building. Manhattan-life at its finest.

French Revolution Night is so easily done. All you need is some appetizers, red grapes that add this delicious sweetness to everything, Crostini, Baguette, maybe a dip or two, olives, a couple of different French cheeses and of course a (two) bottle(s) of red wine. (Le husband and I prefer Bordeaux)

Sometimes if le husband is in a really good mood, he makes his world famous French Onion Soup. One word: YUM!

I am German and our traditional dinner here looks somewhat like this:

Cheese plate is essential of course but if we want to add a delicious twist to our dinner, we switch over to the German charcuterie board. Once in a while I do enjoy a slice of ham, mortadella, salami, sausages, prosciutto or pâté with some mustard, black olives, cornichon pickles and bread. It really only takes minutes to put together and is also a great party/summer dinner if you have friends over. 

A charcuterie board is best served with cold beer, Lambrusco, chilled rosé or of course a glass of Bordeaux which goes to almost everything, right? When I was in France with le husband a couple of years ago I was amazed to see a wine fountain next to the water fountain at a restaurant. Gotta love France! 

Hello and Happy Sunday! 

“Everything about well-being sits firmly on this very simple rule I have learned: You must become who you really are. You must bet the real you. That means to love, accept, and be yourself no matter what. I truly believe that straying away from and separating from your inner being, or who you really are, is the root of discontent. You are not in need of self-help; you are in need of self-love. The only thing yo need to do is find yourself, and stay there.” 

Just a quick Hi from me, late on Sunday to finish this week with a couple of lines about an interesting book I read a while ago. First of all, the Reiki Seminar I attended blew my mind and was way better than expected. I learned so much about myself, about how to deal with certain situations better and how to mentally grow. Thank you le husband for this amazing gift for my upcoming birthday. It was slightly different than getting earrings or perfume and such [I am not so crazy about those things anyway!] and worth so much for me. If you are new to the whole Reiki thing but interested, I would suggest you get in touch with me and I will tell you how to connect with SEHES in Rödental/Germany. I cannot say too much about the seminar because there are no words for how fantastic this experience was. One has to feel and learn for themselves when ready. Thank you again, Martina and Uwe! 

When I was totally new to energy healing and Reiki I searched for books and explanations. Throughout this search I found Amy B. Scher’s book How to Heal Yourself When NO One Else Can – A Total Self-Healing Approach for Mind, Body & Spirit. Again, if you want to familiarize yourself a little idea about this topic, this book is a great start. Be Happy, Be Free, Be YOU! You learn a bit about energy, as well as self -and body healing. Also what it means to surrender, accept and flow when it comes to a true healing process. It is important to identify blockages that might be there and search for answers in the subconscious mind. Another chapter I enjoyed was to learn the language of my body. [The SEHES in-depth seminar covers all this a lot better and so much more!] 

It is and was important for me to change my relationship with stress and certain experiences that have been ingrained in my life. Also, according to Scher to “transform unhealthy emotional patterns and address fear”. You will learn many insights and encouragements while creating your unique map for healing. This book offers lots of solid information with many helpful exercises written in a clear, understandable language. 

Isn’t it great to eventually come into alignment with who you really are one step at a time? I love to discover new things – especially when it comes to my own person – and to figure out who I really am. 

Order your copy here. Below is a great thought-provoking video by Amy B. Scher if you would like to see. Enjoy and have a great week!