Today I was happy. Truly happy. Maybe it was because it felt like spring. Maybe it was because I got up early, started the day with a cup of tea and a good book. Maybe because I had an appointment at Sehes? Or maybe all of the above. I don’t really search for justification: today I was simply happy. One thing I know for sure. I don’t take happiness for granted anymore. Usually, I tended to be a pessimist but I know that this gets me nowhere. I did worry about most of the things and decisions in my life. But I am getting better. I am learning, I am evolving. As my husband would say, “Slowly but surely.”
I learned that it is important to live in the present. And just stop worrying constantly. Everything happens for a reason and things will be a-okay. This is when I started to feel happier. At the end of the day I usually ask myself what I am grateful for. What worked out really well today, and what did not. What can I improve and make better. Sometimes I write these thoughts down but mostly I make a little list in my head. If you really think about it, there are so many things to be grateful for every single day. I am happy that I was able to get out of bed in the morning. Sounds weird, but this is something awesome! Without pain, without having to rely on somebody – I just get up and go. Sweet, no? Many times I am thinking about some sort of ideal life. How my life could be better, faster, greater but recently I realize that I don’t have to chase after the so called “perfect life” because I am already living it.
I am living it right here and now. All I need to do is to stay present and stop worrying so much about the future. I noticed many times that the more I plan to take a certain direction things turn out differently anyway. So why all the sleepless nights! If things are meant to be, they will happen. Easy-peasy! And if I do worry again, I just remind myself of all this. I will try again and begin to have more faith in myself. I think I do deserve to be happy and to live the best life imaginable. We all do! The key is to realize that it is already perfect and that we have everything we need.
When I walked back home for lunch today, the sun was shining. It was strangely warm for January. I took breaths of fresh air, filled my lungs and felt the ground beneath my feet. I stopped for one minute or two, closed my eyes and soaked in the sun. I think that this was a perfect moment to realize that I do have it all. I am living the sweet life. I kept on walking. Walking back home to meet my husband and son.
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