On doing the single parenting thing for a while

The last couple of days were just crazy. I knew my husband is about to leave and everything was just crammed into each hour of the day. Now he left and I am alone with my son trying to get everything done and still grow and to watch everything else around me grow and picturing the future. I found it hard the first day to find a sense of accomplishment of some sort. It seemed to me like if all this waiting for my husband to return or trying to fill this time with productive things is turning the day into a blur and these blurry days keep flying by. Well, things changed by now.

It is September now. The “ber” months started which is usually an indication for me that winter is not that far away. September is usually the most beautiful month in New York City so we will definitely be all around town next week for sure to enjoy it. [Kind of like trying to make the best out of every situation in life]

All my friends who’s husbands serve on a mission somewhere told me that single parenting is hell. “You are alone all day long and the worst is if you do not have family around to support you”. I think it is okay to put my life on hold of some sort and just be there for my son in this situation. I also have been told me that my days would be “chaotic, that I cannot event take a shower in the morning and that I should cherish every moment in solitude”. To clarify things: I am fine. We are fine. Motherhood is a challenge but my son is just so awesome. Since my husband left it seems like he is the boss in this house without being annoying. He is so easy to handle. Easier than before because I am the only person around to guide and teach him.  The days go by so smoothly and I love it. I cherish every moment with him these days – I enjoy it because I know it all goes by so fast. We are like best buddies of some sort.

I take him to the park or to the community garden next door and we go for walks. Library, book stores… it is all good. It is just amazing how easy things are if you just have a positive attitude and a loving partner even far away.  But we know he is HERE so it is all good. People usually warn you about the bad but forget to tell you about the good.

I keep in mind that I have been born to move mountains. As it always has done – everything in my life will fall into its place. I will find my balance. We will find our balance and these fall months that I am alone now with the leaves (and feathers) changing I know this all will be remembered as a great challenge that this family of mine overcame.

I found a Dr. Seuss book in my son’s little book collection last night. This quote was the last thing I read to him before he fell asleep peacefully, curled up with his teddy.

“So be sure when you step, Step with care and great tact. And remember that life’s A Great Balancing Act. And will you succeed? Yes! You will, indeed! Kid, you’ll move mountains.”